I sit cross legged

in the middle of my heart, of my Mandala,

Nothing beneath me

Nothing besides me

Nothing above me

Only empty, deep blackness

I sit letting the emptiness be

Accepting it without hiding from it anymore

Welcoming it.

I cannot draw it

I cannot write it

It is too big

It is too everything

It cannot be fully contained

It cannot be fully defined

It cannot be fully revealed.

I let myself be,

I let my life be as it is

without definitions

boundless and wild

beautiful and frightening

immense and small.

This is the perfection in life,

I did not see it before for what it was,

this total blackness

this emptiness that fills every corner,

I mistakenly confused for void

and helplessness

and hopelessness.

I am Home.

I see the sparks of light purple and then

some white luminous flashes.

I am free.

I am free from the prison of wanting to make sense with these lines.

I am free from the need to be understood and being right.

Then why be scared?

What is left to fear when we can embrace the full blackness?

Everything passes eventually.

I am destined to die like everything else,

why then giving up the risk of living to protect a safe unlived life?

What does it matter?

To live long or to live really, even if is just for a short moment?

I let fear have a voice, but not being the driving force of my choices,

I let anger have a voice, but not being an unbending master,

I let envy have a voice, but not being the only voice, I hear,

I let all of the be present,

but I do not let them be all that I see, hear, think or feel anymore,

I do not let them define who I am.

Because they have reasons,

but they are also short-sighted,

so, I let them be present and have their voice, but along with all the other voices, experiences and feelings that I have.

We are complex.

Life is complex.

The Mandala of Life, I am visualising, is more complex I will ever manage to represent and capture with paper and colours, I will keep trying and, in this process, I will learn more, I will discover more, I will continue to travel within and higher.

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The visualisation of the Mandala of Life was inspired from the guided meditation going within on Insighttimer (Meditation by: Dakota Earth Cloud at the Link: https://insighttimer.com/dakotaearthcloud/guided-meditations/going-within)

I find extremely difficult to talk about me and I started this piece few times and I have experienced a strong resistance to complete it or publish it, on the other hand I believe that introducing myself, telling little of my story and about my qualifications is an essential preliminary step for building a trusting relationship with the people I will interact either through my blogs or through Life coaching. I have an accredited diploma in Executive and Life Coaching (September 2015) and QQI Award with distinction in Professional Coaching Practice and Ethics (Component Certificate level 6 - December 2015). More recently I received a certificate from the Mindfulness Coaching School (ICF and ASCTH approved) in “The Art of Engaged Mindfulness” (May 2016) and I attended two courses at the Dublin Buddhist Centre: “Introduction to Meditation” and “ Know your mind” for my personal growth, even though I have been practice mindfulness meditation for few years. I also got few years ago the Reiki level 1 and I plan in the future to obtain also the second level. In the future in addition to the second level of Reiki, I plan to continue to attend other courses in Mindfulness and Psychology because I wish to integrate my coaching with other complementary holistic therapies and applications. In the last few month I started a new project working with Mandalas as a method for meditation and reflection which I publish on my blog. I work fulltime in the asset management industry where I currently worked as Client Transition Manager and before as Institutional Client Service Manager, Investment Analyst and at the very start as Executive Assistant. I also briefly worked at the start of my professional life in accounting department of a car rental company. I have an “under-graduate leaving certificate” in business and languages studies from a commercial secondary school in Rome and a Master’s Degree in Political Science – International Studies with honors from the University of Rome and a post-graduate course in the European Union Economy, Law and Policies. I have lived in Ireland since 2000 and I have settled down in the north county of Dublin where I live with my husband, my daughter, a cat and some tropical fishes. I grew-up in Rome (Italy). I grew up in Rome and when I was young student I used to be a very active participant in my local Catholic church in Rome and do random volunteer activities there. In Ireland, I volunteered for many years in an Oxfam shop and I currently volunteer as mentor for a charity working with young student. In 2013, I had a short experience in setting-up and manage a small not for profit holistic and community studio (The StillRoom). In addition to an interest in holistic therapies, meditation and Buddhism, drawing Mandalas, writing blogs, reading and buying tons of books, volunteering and supporting charities, I also enjoy working with my favourite crystals (clear quartz, rose quartz and amethysts) to create small keepsakes, dream catchers and wind-chimes.

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